Things Going Forward

It’s only been a little over a month since we came into the new year and I laid out my resolutions for 2018, and already I’m backtracking.

That’s not a bad thing in this case though, there’s actually a very good reason for it. In fact, I reckon things will get a lot better as a result of these changes.

Now, before I said I’d continue my podcast, I even went so far as to tweet saying I would release the episode (that was a matter of weeks ago and I’ve since deleted that tweet lmao). However, as you might be able to guess, I’ve decided I’m not going to bother with the podcast further as of right now.


Because I remembered who I am and what I actually want.

I have strengths in areas of writing that are far better suited to a certain style of content. Whilst I’m quite a good talker, I don’t think a podcast is really for me. I’m glad I tried it out as it’s something I always wanted to do, and I fully intend to return to that format (with my original podcast idea, hopefully).

So, if not podcasts, then what will I be doing?

Let’s split this into three sections: my website, my YouTube, and other social media.


I’ll use my website primarily to showcase my writing from now on, and I won’t be posting much of anything else on here, other than links to videos that I deem relevant (such as milestones).

So, in terms of written content on this page, it’s going to be exclusively stories from myself for the most part. Short stories, extracts, anything like that.

I may also write posts that expand on topics addressed in my videos, should I feel they don’t fully cover what I want to get across.


This is perhaps the most interesting part, and where most of the change is happening.

YouTube is ma boi! I’ve been using it since 2009 to make videos (vastly different to the ones I make now ofc), and it’s my favorite thing on the Internet to be honest, even if it has taken some odd turns over the years.

As I said earlier, I’m good at talking, and I don’t feel like I’ve ever fully taken advantage of that ability, nor my understanding of everything else to do with video content.

A couple hours ago, I posted a video called “Why You Should Start Writing RIGHT NOW“, which marks the start of my channel’s new direction.

I want to make videos in scenery that doesn’t fit the typical “writing advice” landscape. I always have. But for some reason, perhaps because of my book, some lingering insecurities, or the British weather, I rarely did anything of the sort, and even when I have, I’ve yet to be fully satisfied with it.

To this date, I can say I’ve not made a video on my channel thus far that makes me go: “Yeah, that was a banger.”

Not one.

I’m satisfied with them enough to post them, especially because they’re authentic. But I’ve always known what I want my videos to look like, what I want my channel to look like, and I’ve yet to achieve it.

That is why from here on, my videos will be focusing very strongly on the mindset of being a writer.

Rather than try to pump out content all the time, I’m going to try and make videos I feel are actually meaningful and helpful, whilst keeping them as concise and to the point as possible.

That doesn’t mean they won’t ever be 20mins+. Some of the videos I want to make I can tell will be bigger topics that will take a bit of time to fully explain. However, the videos shouldn’t be longer than necessary, and I’ll cut as much fluff as needed to make certain of that.

Could I not just talk about the mindsets and philosophies for writers in podcast format?


But I don’t want to.

I prefer video. I like the dynamic background, the sounds and scenery. I don’t want to sit with books behind me or in a quiet room. I can see how some of my future videos would be shot in such a way, but I don’t want that to be the standard.

Here are some examples of video ideas I have for the future:

“Should you be a writer?”
“Why writing takes you so long”
“You’re allowed to be wrong”
“Avoid romanticism”

Those ones are pretty standard, here’s a few to tease how deep I’m willing to go.

How athletics can teach you to write fantasy novels”
Should writers be modest?”
“Writer vs Storyteller”

And many, many more.

(Those titles don’t even capture the half of it, to be honest).

Other Social Media

I don’t plan on doing anything special with these things. Expect the odd tweet on Twitter here and there (I don’t really care for it), and perhaps a post or two on Facebook.

To be honest, most of those things just exist so I look more professional, and to give me a couple pretty logos on my pages.

It may sound like I’m being lax, but the previous section should tell you I’m doing anything but.

The Moral of The Blog Post

As with most things I do, I want to be different.

I want to catch your attention with something unfamiliar, lure you in by your curiosity, and then sooth you with comforting words of familiarity, before shell-shocking you with ideas that may ignore convention.

I’m not here to be like every other writer, or to do things the way they’ve been done a thousand times before.

It’s time I remember that, and it’s time I show all of you that too.

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The Aspiring Goddess


I cannot tell you anything about this short story, except this: it’s related to my flagship series. Perhaps one day you’ll appreciate it in a new way, perhaps not. Either way, you should be able to appreciate it on it’s own.

“If I were a Goddess,” Child One begins, “I would make everyone think like me.”

Child Two laughs at this. “Like you?” she teases. “That would be boring. Nobody would ever smile.” Her legs dangle off the edge of the cliff, she swings them back and forth and pays no mind to the waves that come crashing beneath them.

Child One never smiles because there is nothing to smile at. Smiling is illogical. “That is why I must become a Goddess,” she says. “Because people allow senseless things like boredom to get in the way of what you all claim to desire.”

“And what do we claim to desire then?” Child Two challenges.

Child One spares no second with her response. “World peace. You all say you want it, but you are not willing to give up the only thing that stops you from getting it. Illogical.”

Child Two stops swinging her legs, cocks her head, and frowns. “We should give up all our emotions if we want peace?” She shakes her head. “That does not make sense.”

“It makes perfect sense,” Child One says speedily. “You, like all others, are too emotional, too illogical, too human, to understand. You think loving someone to the point of wanting to sacrifice yourself is logical? You think hating someone based on ignorance, rather than personal experience, is logical?”

“Hold on,” Child Two makes a forestalling gesture. “Who said ignorance is logical?”

“You all live it,” Child One says unfeelingly. “Maybe you have not yet. But the moment your family is in danger, the moment you are in danger, you will cease to care for anything or anybody beyond your inner circle… if even them. Your emotions will take control, and even if others can help you, even if the situation is not as dire as you believe, you will not care. You will shut all others out, just because of your fear. Fear bred from ignorance.”

The children sit in silence as time turns for many moments. Child One inspects the sky. A veil of red-velvet was beginning to be laid overhead by the Goddess’ hands. Child One knew that would soon be her hands, and soon, she would determine the colour of the sky.

Finally, Child Two spoke again. “How will we ever appreciate a peaceful world without emotions like happiness and joy? And how do you even plan on becoming a Goddess anyway?”

Child One looked out over the sunset-struck sea. “You do not need to appreciate peace,” she began. “You need only live it. To your second question: I will kill Her. I will kill the Goddess, and take everything from her.”

Child Two laughs again.

“What?” Child One asks.

“Didn’t you notice?” Child Two’s smirk becomes a grin. “You’re smiling.”

Child One feels her face, feeling the curve of her lips, the curve that forms smiles. “Yes,” she says, feeling no cheer or surprise. “I am.”

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Back and BETA Than Ever

What’s up, people?

Yeah, it’s me. Told ya I’d be back. I hope you didn’t miss me too much.

A lots happened in the seven (almost eight) months I’ve been away. I watched the seventh season of Game of Thrones, the Mayweather vs Mcgregor fight happened (the outcome what I imagined), there were two standout terrorist attacks in my city, one of which was literally 10mins away from where I live, or should I say… lived.

I moved out from home for my studies in September, and at the end of that month I went partying around bits of southern England (a university freshers tour of sorts).

I played one of the most gorgeous and memorable video game trilogies also, which goes by the name ‘The Longest Journey’ (highly recommend it!).

I’ve also begun to consider self-publishing, but that will be explained more at a later date.

And of course, I watched the eighth episode of Star Wars, which I was very pleased with, despite the hate-wave it was inevitably going to face.

So, yeah. A good amount’s happened.

I stuck to what I said (mostly) about not posting on here or really anywhere (I did tweet/retweet a couples times, and respond to some YouTube comments). I said I would do that until I had finished this story, at least to the point where it could be read by others and I would feel satisfied enough to begin querying it.

Today, I am proud to finally announce that after four years of writing, rewriting, reading for research, reading for… reading, and playing lots of video games whilst studying and trying to maintain a healthy social life, my story is finished.

I made a video a couple years ago stating that my first draft was finished. If you watch the video, you’ll see I’m obviously quite pleased with myself. I knew there was more work to be done, but… damn. I never thought it’d be so much. Even I underestimated how much work went into a novel.

I won’t spend this post talking about what took me so long to finish it, or why it was harder than I anticipated, that’ll be a future video. I’ve wanted to do a follow up to my “Writing Epic Fantasy” vlog, but obviously required a suitable level of experience to be able to do so.

For now though, let me reminisce for a bit.

It was only a week after I turned 17, that I began this story. This is the first novel I’ve ever written, and I’m sure there’ll be parts that show it (despite my painstaking efforts to scrub them out). I’ve learnt a lot during my time writing this story.

Everything I’ve learnt about the process, about my process, everything I’ve been talking about in my podcasts and videos, all the advice I’ve given thus far, all of it had come from this story, or me learning how to best tell this specific story.

The voice of the story, my style of prose, my reading preferences, what environments I write best in, what ways I pass blocks, what usually inspired those blocks to begin with, and many, many other things I can’t currently remember.

But there is one thing above all that I’ve learned with this story, the most valuable thing I could have gotten from it.

How to write a book.

If you’re a writer too (which you probably are) and you’re working on something right now, and it’s difficult and you want to just toss it aside and completely forget about it… then do it!

No. I’m joking. Don’t do that.

Finish it.

Even if you’ll never get published (which you might not), even if it’s crap (which it probably is), and even if you never intend to write again, at least finish it. Then, share it with the world.

You could just let family/friends read it, or you could shove it out there into the great ether that is the web.

Whatever you do, do your best to finish it, if you really want to be a writer that is. You can’t be a storyteller without actually telling stories, and a story has an ending.

So, try and tell your tale, and tell it to the bitter end.

In the coming days, there will be plenty of content coming. All the ideas I’ve had brewing in the meantime, and many of those I had before but never felt authorised to speak on, I can now finally produce into something for your viewing pleasure.

The podcasts shall continue, starting the first week of the new year, and vlogs will be coming out eventually, but I’m still trying to figure out how best to do them.

If you’re interested in reading my book, let me know! I’ll be making a video about it soon anyway.

One thing is certain though, I’m back!

2018 is here, and I’m ready to make it the best year for writing I’ve ever had.

What about you?


That’s all I’ve got to say, and I’m out!


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Sayonara… for now.

This is completely contrary to what I stated in my previous podcast, but there will not be more content like I was saying.

For now.

More content will come, and it will be refreshing and a lot better than my current stuff. But I need some time to think about how to proceed, but also, I want to focus on my novel.

This story of mine, The Light Within Tears, I’ve been writing it for a while now, and last year, for various reasons, I didn’t do anywhere near as much work on it as I would have liked. I think it worked out best that I didn’t, but still, I’d rather not have a repeat of it.

It’s going to be radio silence until I am done revising this story. Next you hear from me (and it may be a little while), I will have finished revising it, you would be able to read it (if you really want to), and I would be finally submitting it to agents and editors.

And then, on the content side, I would hopefully have figured out exactly how I want to proceed and if it’s anything like what I’m planning then it should be a vast improvement to my channel.

And that’s it. No more tweets, no more blog posts, no more podcast episodes, and no videos. Complete and utter silence until the revising stage of my manuscript is complete.

As a side note: I’m writing this on Monday, but this is probably posted on Friday, in which case, I’ve probably already made it a good amount of the way through my manuscript revision. And, by now, I’m no longer a teenager. Huh.


That’s all I’ve got to say, and I’m out!


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My Gift To Young People: Perspective On Our Generational Problem


Oh… and happy birthday to me, I guess.

Yeah, it’s that time again. Celebrating a year closer to death. Yay.

Just kidding, I’m not actually that cynical and jaded, even if I am getting older.

So, twenty years old. My teen years are over, and man, what a string of years they were. Hard to believe I’ll never be considered a ‘teen’ again.

I knew this day would come, and so I wanted to give something to all the teens and young people out there, particularly the writers. But, if you’re not a writer, that’s okay, I won’t discriminate. I will be primarily speaking in the context of writing here, but honestly, whether you’re a teen who just likes reading blogs, a parent to a teenager(s), or even an older writer, I think you may find this helpful. Just try to re-contextualise it for yourself if you’re not the primary target audience.

But for all my fellow millennials, generation Y, X, whatever they call us, this is my gift to you.

The Surface of the Problems
(You’re not too young)

I’ve heard and read from young people on multiple occasions, that they feel their age means “there’s no point.” By that, they mean they’re too young, so why bother.

It’s true that if you’re young, you may lack the ability and understanding to accurately express your ideas, and that may lead to you being misunderstood and maybe not taken very seriously by others.

But that’s not an excuse.

I’ll use writing as an example.

You can access information to help you, you can find resources to help you improve and hone your craft. You can find online communities to give you encouragement, to remind you that you’re not alone.

Instead of seeing your age as a limiting factor, think of how it can be a boost. I have branded myself off the idea that I’m a young writer. My podcast is literally called ‘From Zero’ because I have almost nothing to my name, besides my talent, skill, and passion. But that’s all you need to start.

Back in 2014, about a week from today, I was freshly 17, and I decided to begin writing a book. I knew next to nothing about writing books at the time, now I know as much as anyone else.

Everyone says you have to read a lot, and prior to that I had been a reluctant reader in my teens. I went to a Waterstones, went to the Science-fiction & Fantasy section, and I knew almost nobody. I think the most I knew, was J.K. Rowling, George R.R. Martin, and maybe a couple others. Fast-forward a year, and I knew almost everyone and what most of their books were about, and even a bit about some of them as people.

Did it require a ton of immersion in the field to get that understanding? Yes.

But the amount of effort that is required of you, depends on the height of your ambitions. If you just want to finish a manuscript, format it, and self-publish it, only expecting your friends & family to read it, that’s very different from hoping to create a bestseller that thousands of people adore, because that requires a thicker skin, and greater dedication.

You might think your age is the reason why you can’t finish your manuscript, you may blame it on school or your parents, but I promise you, whatever writer’s block you have, whatever situational issues, you can still find the time to write. How do I know that?

Because, you’re reading this blog.

That’s it.

If you’re sitting here, right now, reading this, then you could also be opening another tab, and looking up ways to overcome your blocks. You could be practising what that advice preaches, or better yet, you could be writing.

Even if you have a terrible home situation, if you’re still in school, then you can use that space to write. If for whatever reason that’s not an option, then go to a friends house. If that’s not an option then go to a library. If that’s not an option then download Word on your phone and write on there.

Welcome to 2017, where there’s almost no excuses anymore.

Understand that you’re using your age as a scapegoat. I used to think I was too young to pursue publication, but there are people that got published at a younger age than I even began my manuscript.

The Root of the Problems
(You’re not too old)

In this age of instant-gratification and the glorification of first-world problems, many people I know at my age get depressed and demoralised, thinking they’ve already ‘missed their time’. I’m often left thinking: “What the hell are you lot on about?

But I do understand.

We live in an era unlike any other. In days past, older people, respected in their fields were the ones who made the money and had the celebrity status. Even if they were young, it was in few industries, and getting that fame and respect was an arduous endeavour that was rarely achieved.

But nowadays, you can hop onto YouTube, click a button or two, and ‘Broadcast Yourself’. Young writers can go onto Wattpad, post stories and become mini-celebrities. You can find communities you fit into within seconds. You can interact and connect with the people you admire immediately.

Older people often say our generation has an entitlement issue, but when you look at the facts and the lack of rational perspective to balance it out, can you really blame us? And teenagers have been around since the 50s… so, entitlement issues began well before us anyway.

People in my generation rarely look up to the mature people anymore. They see lights and glamour, and they see it working. They see that an 18-year-old girl can make a lot of money purely from her looks on Instagram. Their 10-year-old cousin can get paid for making YouTube videos about his favourite comic-book characters.

Fame is not some distant thing that happens in Hollywood anymore. It can and does happen anywhere and with anyone and for almost anything.

As someone who has grown up in this generation, I’m always fascinated with our future. On the lighter side, I wonder what marvellous new things we’ll design. On the darker, I ponder what health issues we’re developing and will suddenly break out in out thirties, creating a generational epidemic.

But many of my fellow young people are concerned with their current problems. That makes sense, but they dwell upon things that, in my view, they have no need to dwell on.

So, you’re 17 and you’re not a YouTube celebrity. So what? Most YouTube celebrities aren’t 17. But you see, the issue is that enough of them are. Enough to make many other 17-year-olds concerned about their own self-worth and develop a fear of missing out.

Social media obviously has done a lot of good by allowing us more inter-connectivity. But it has created a ‘snapshot’ of people’s lives. Modelling catalogues, celebrity culture, and things of the like have done this for ages, but now, it’s everywhere. And anyone that’s not you, can seem like they lead a more glamorise life if they know how to make it seem that way.

I mean, the other day, I heard a girl in my class at University tell her friends they should pay extra money for a hotel room. Why? “Because we can do snaps.” Yes, she was referring to Snapchat. That was her counter to her friends rather rational point of, “We’re just sleeping in there, so we don’t need to pay much.”

This could be seen as just a ‘phase’ but the problem that I see in it, is lasting self-esteem issues that could bleed into adulthood, and potentially the rest of our lives. Regret is in my view, the worst feeling you can have. And already, before 20, many people are regretful of things they shouldn’t even be expecting of themselves.

Consider that we now live in a world where your schoolmates could be earning more money than your parents.. combined, because they play Minecraft on YouTube and have a dedicated legion of fans.

Personally, I think that’s amazing. I’ve been making content on YouTube for nearly 10 years, so I’ve seen it change a lot. I recall the phases it’s gone through (particularly in the gaming department) in regards to monetisation, and those old-school partnerships and gaming networks.

Now, anyone, anywhere, can click a button and start earning. For free. That, to me as someone who grew up in this generation, is still insane. But you see, for many people, that’s “how it should be”.

See the problem?

The Solution to the Problems

Instead of appreciating what we have been given, and relishing in the opportunities around us, our first instinct is to boast about how it is ‘deserved’. It’s the difference between an entitlement mentality and an appreciative mentality.

So, yeah, I’ve been going on about internet culture and all that, but it’s important to give some perspective on what I believe the wider issue at play here is. We think we’re not worthy of getting something because we didn’t get it earlier, and thus, we believe the time has passed. We expect that just because we exist and have a smartphone, there should be some kind of fame attached to it.

Now, I know some of you are thinking: “Hold on, I don’t care about being famous.” But even if it’s not to that extent, many young people expect a certain number of likes. It’s my birthday today, I would be a bit weirded out if nobody posted on my Facebook wall to wish me well.

Do you see my point? There’s nothing inherently evil about wanting these things, or in aspiring for them, but understand they are not deserved or certain. But because they have become such a part of our daily lives, we do expect a degree of validation from others.

And I’m primarily addressing those who are very concerned with this, which, if you take a look at studies, is a lot of our generation.

But… what are you rushing to anyway?

There are some industries that require you to have looks, or a level of fitness that you just may not have. Or only have a certain amount of time to capitalise on. Okay, in those areas, you should be working faster to achieve it, but don’t beat yourself up over it if you’re truly doing your best. Remember that you still have time. And even if that never pans out (because it just won’t for most people), don’t view yourself as a failure.

I wanted to be published as a teenager. As of today, that dream is dead. That will never happen now. Guess what? I don’t care. I’ll still get published, and instead, it’ll be in my twenties. But here’s the secret, even if I don’t get published in my twenties, I’ll just change it to my thirties, then my forties.

And in each of those cases, I will see the positives in the situation. If I’m published in my thirties it just means I’ll be a better writer by then, and my stories will be 1000x better than they are now. Forties onward, the same thing.

The truth is, if you don’t know how to appreciate what you have now, you will never appreciate what you have later.

Even if your dreams were dropped into your lap, without the work and time, the blood, sweat and tears required of you, you’d never appreciate and enjoy it. Look at most child stars, they don’t exactly turn out that great later on do they? It’s all glam glam for a while, but then it’s a downward slope from there.

How on earth can we live in a world more connected than ever, yet studies show a lot of young people feel lonely? I’ll tell you. It’s not that they have no friends necessarily, or nobody to talk to (though that is the case for some). It’s that they’re unable to understand the value in those things.

I like to give advice and offer new perspectives, and this is a very close to home issue, where people I know are strongly affected by this way of thinking. I am part of this generation, I’m growing up with you guys, so if I can see things this way, you can too.

You are not too young and you’re most certainly not too old. What you are, is too unappreciative and lacking perspective.

Don’t think you’re not performing well just because your friend has internet fame and you don’t. It’s a lot of hard work to get fame, even on the Internet. Sure, you can get it easier than ever before and for things you’d never expect, but it doesn’t mean it’s going to happen tomorrow.

Yes, some people do go viral for the stupidest of things, and can become celebrities (“Cash me outside” girl). That’s internet culture for you. Fame can come that quick, and if you’re ever lucky enough to be one of those people, be very grateful, and realise your fortune for what it is.

Remember, even millionaires can go broke.

If you’re not one of those people (which is more likely), then be happy with what you have. I know that’s cliche, but it’s the honest truth. Stop rushing. Work towards what you want and do all you can to outperform and rise above the competition. Don’t cut yourself slack just because you’re young, but… (here comes the paradox), remember that you are young. Remember that you do have many years ahead.

It’s a paradoxical belief, but if there’s one thing I can promise you, it’s that understanding it, and living it, will change your life for the better in so many ways.

Now, if you don’t agree with me, comment all your doubts so I can dismantle them, then after that, go and tell your story, go and do whatever it is you must do, in whatever way you must, and let the world be your audience.

Just remember you have plenty of time to practice. 😉

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Listen To Me Pitching To Literary Agents!

After all those weeks of promising and delays, it’s finally done. I swear, writing captions for your video is a damn chore, especially when it’s difficult to sometimes hear what’s being said and there’s a lot of false starts and stuttering.

I realise that I kind of discussed different aspects of the story that I wanted feedback on, with each of the agents. So, it’s not a rehearsed pitch being said three times. I wouldn’t say this is the ideal way of pitching, but honestly, it wasn’t in the most ideal of conditions. My ideal condition would just be more time.


I’m sure this goes for most people. But, trying to explain a story that is as complex as mine is really difficult. One of the most rewarding aspects of this however, was that I can always listen back to it and hear where I was messing up. The parts that make me cringe, are the same parts that I need to pay the closest attention to, so that in the future, I can present them in a more polished manner (or not at all).

Were the agents people that I would give my book to? No, because they don’t handle my genre. I knew that. That’s also a reason why I was happy to go. Initially it annoyed me, but I realised the advantage in it. I could practise my pitching in an arena where there was no real losing.
I already knew no deal could arise from this, so I went in only expecting to learn how well my pitching skills were (by having this audio) and also learning how professionals within the industry would respond to it.
At the end of it all, I’m glad to have had the chance to do this and for FREE at that. It was a good experience.
I think my intro at the start says enough about the video, so I won’t say much else.
If you have any questions feel free to ask them!


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Setting Goals & Timeframes

The ninth episode of my podcast it out!

In it, I explain how understanding yourself, what goals you have
and the timeframes you have to reach them, can be the determining factor in whether or not you manage to finish your projects.

One thing I forgot to mention, is that if you don’t meet your timeframes, that’s okay. You don’t have to cry about it, you can just set a new one, and aspire to meet that one instead. Hopefully, the original timeframe allowed you to get a decent amount of work done though.

If this sounds interesting, then you should listen to the full episode!


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Emotive Writing/The Rule of Cool

Emotion is important, perhaps even more important than logic. In this episode, I delve into how emotion in your writing is an understated aspect of what creates memorable stories.

What I realised by the end of this episode, is that this topic is larger for me than I initially realised. I never got to speak about how much connection factors into emotion, but I believe the ‘Rule of Cool’ was handled rather well. But I’d love to really talk about just exactly how significant I believe emotive writing to be.

Perhaps I’ll do another part to this episode, and revisit it at a later date. I just want you to be aware that this episode doesn’t contain everything I have to say about the topic.

Hopefully it is still helpful for you despite all that.


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The Light Within Tears – Prologue

A/N: This is the prologue to the novel I’ve been working on. The revision for the full story will be done soon, and then it will be in BETA, meaning anyone that wants to read it, can. It’s a short thing, as I believe the best prologues often are. I will post again to remind everyone when the book is available for beta readers. Until then, enjoy this.

Please let me know what you think of it through whatever channels you wish.

And yes, I’m aware I’ve not been posting for two weeks. But don’t worry, there’s a lot of content on the way!


The Start of The End

“We never foresaw this. We never meant for this to happen. Especially not her. Of all people… especially not her.”

~ Unknown

“This is not your story,” the talking book says to me.

I look at the golden face embossed into its leathery-black cover. Its mouth remains nothing more than a thin line as it speaks.

“I know that,” I say sharply. “But I want to know what happened.”

I’m sitting in a field of brown within a place ruled by darkness. Dark creatures roam the land, some are as small as me, others are much, much larger. Big or small, they don’t bother me. There are thousands of these creatures, but there are no people. All the towns and cities I’ve seen are empty, dirty, dark, broken.

I frown as I glare down at the book. It’s laying on the earthy ground, somehow watching me with its ever-closed eyes.

“You know everything,” I tell it. It likes being flattered, being told how smart it is. “You say you know everything about the past. So, tell me then. Tell me about the past.”

“Indeed, I do know of the past,” the book proudly affirms in its matronly voice. I stifle a smirk; I know the thing too well. “And it is your right to know, Mistress. But to know how the present came to be, I must tell you about the journey of the ones instrumental in its creation. The False Herald, The Misguided Prodigy, and The Aspiring Goddess. I shall tell you the story in three installments, each a year apart.”

“What?” I exclaim. “Why do I have to wait three years to know? I’ll be fifteen by the time I’ve heard the whole story! What’s the point in that?”

“There are some things, Mistress, some stories, that must be experienced in their entirety. Sometimes, that means more than simply knowing the story itself. Sometimes, we must take time out to consider, to understand, to wonder.”

“And…” I narrow my eyes at the damned tome. “Why would I want to do that?”

“Because whilst this is not your story, it is one you ought to know, one you deserve to know, and if you dare to venture into the world beyond the darkness, then it is one you must know.”

“Then tell me it all now!” I demand. “Tell me so I can get out of this cursed place!”

“No, Mistress.”


“No. There are many things you may demand of me, but assisting in your death is not one of them. This world hates you. The force that governs it hates you. To face it appropriately you must first be prepared. I shall inform you of the power of your adversaries and teach you about your own. I shall instruct you on how to use me, and when to use me. I shall tell you the story of the past so you may understand the present, and know how to confront the future. And then, and only then, shall you be ready.”

I consider the book’s words. They sound clever and wise, but this blasted book always sounds clever and wise. “And it will take three years?”


“Fine,” I sigh. “It’s not like I’ve got much better things to do.”

“I must forewarn you, Mistress,” the book says solemnly. “This is a story of tragedy. Indeed, there will be light and joy. Indeed, you may grow attached to these people and their stories. Indeed, you may yearn to return to such times when the sky was a calm blue. But remember, Mistress, this story’s end has been set, and you now live the aftermath of it.”

“I know,” I say, suddenly afraid. Why am I afraid? Like the book says, I know the ending. But then I realise that I don’t. I don’t know the ending, I just know what the world looks like after it. I don’t know why the sky is red, why it screams thunder and spits acid. Or why there are dark creatures everywhere and abandoned cities. But the book tells me I cannot leave here until I do know. I want to see the world outside of this darkness. If knowing this can grant me that, then I am willing to know it all, however long it must take.

So, to the book I say, “Tell me.”

And to me, the book says, “Very well, Mistress. I shall tell you the first story, the story of the light within tears. It begins as many stories do, with a chosen youth with a grand, undeniable Fate. And this youth is a girl of white hair and blue eyes.”

Anime List: (where I get a fair amount of my inspiration)


I have been waiting a while to talk about this! Finally, in episode 7 of the From Zero Podcast, I do. I suppose, in the context of my YouTube channel and content, it’s not been that long. But for me personally, I have wanted to talk about this for quite some time.

Science-fantasy is a genre I have a lot of passion and love for. It’s stupidly underappreciated, and I have abolsutely no idea why. People don’t make stories in science-fantasy settings very often, and I find it mind-boggling.

In this episode, I give my own definition of science-fantasy, as I understand it, and how I feel such a setting can be best created.

If you know of any science-fantasy stories, be sure to recommend them to me. BUT, listen to the whole podcast before you do. You may find my idea of science-fantasy is not exactly the same as yours.


Anime List: (where I get a fair amount of my inspiration)